I had always thought I've got a great set of friends. That all of them were as real and caring as I was to them. That in some ways, or at least in little ways, they treasure me as I have treasured them. But I was wrong. It wasnt ALL of them...
I had once believed that words such as ' i'll always be here for you', ' I'll forever be your friend', and all that jazz were always so true and effective. But once again, my belief proved me wrong. Those are just plain words. A meaningless cliche with not a single authenticity them. Those are all just some flowery words meant for deception and false hopes. I may sound cynical but, do believe me. I AM telling the truth.
I once had six great friends. But later I found out that I only have five great friends. Take out one person, coz that one was a lie after all. tsk tsk. And I thought she was true to all the words she's said to me. Its quite frustrating, dont you think? Once upon a time she was too good to be true, telling you how she was happy to have you as her friend then goes a start of a single clash of perceptions and misunderstandings and poof! the friendship's gone. Just that. In an instant she started moving on with her life without giving out a single effort to patch things up despite the fact that I had done my move to sort things out. I was angry. So was she. But I didnt let that anger ruin the special bond we had. I cooled myself for some time and decided to settle whatever issue we had. I treasure our friendship, after all. And Im not one to drop a friend all in an instant for just some petty things that I know I could handle. I once did that. And I promised never to make that same mistake again. But what about her? Honestly, I dont know. I dont know if she really did mean all those fancy things she said to me when we were still good friends or she simply said those words just for the sake of simply blurting it out. No good intentions behind it whatsoever. I dont even know if she' still the same girl I've met not so long ago. Suddenly she's all become a stranger to me. Like a person coming out of his mask, it was hard to recognize her nor even determine which one was real. The old or the new.
Admittingly, it hurts. I was really hurt to realize that a friend I THOUGHT I have would suddenly leave me just like that amidst the pain I went through and despite the effort I made to save the friendship I AGAIN THOUGHT I have.
Perhaps she didnt care at all. And maybe, just maybe, she'll never will. But what the heck. I did the best that i could. If she couldnt meet me halfway, then I'll just have to stop and just let things fall. I've had enough. I"ve got ade, jelyn, joy, des, and kid anyway. Knowing that I still have them to treasure, plus my sister and my families, is enough to put a big smile on my face and pride to the whole world that I have them in my life. A kind of people who would never leave me and would forever remain cruel yet honest and genuine with me. :)
With regards to the one who left, here's my simple message to you: bahala na ang Diyos saiyo. Period.
I had once believed that words such as ' i'll always be here for you', ' I'll forever be your friend', and all that jazz were always so true and effective. But once again, my belief proved me wrong. Those are just plain words. A meaningless cliche with not a single authenticity them. Those are all just some flowery words meant for deception and false hopes. I may sound cynical but, do believe me. I AM telling the truth.
I once had six great friends. But later I found out that I only have five great friends. Take out one person, coz that one was a lie after all. tsk tsk. And I thought she was true to all the words she's said to me. Its quite frustrating, dont you think? Once upon a time she was too good to be true, telling you how she was happy to have you as her friend then goes a start of a single clash of perceptions and misunderstandings and poof! the friendship's gone. Just that. In an instant she started moving on with her life without giving out a single effort to patch things up despite the fact that I had done my move to sort things out. I was angry. So was she. But I didnt let that anger ruin the special bond we had. I cooled myself for some time and decided to settle whatever issue we had. I treasure our friendship, after all. And Im not one to drop a friend all in an instant for just some petty things that I know I could handle. I once did that. And I promised never to make that same mistake again. But what about her? Honestly, I dont know. I dont know if she really did mean all those fancy things she said to me when we were still good friends or she simply said those words just for the sake of simply blurting it out. No good intentions behind it whatsoever. I dont even know if she' still the same girl I've met not so long ago. Suddenly she's all become a stranger to me. Like a person coming out of his mask, it was hard to recognize her nor even determine which one was real. The old or the new.
Admittingly, it hurts. I was really hurt to realize that a friend I THOUGHT I have would suddenly leave me just like that amidst the pain I went through and despite the effort I made to save the friendship I AGAIN THOUGHT I have.
Perhaps she didnt care at all. And maybe, just maybe, she'll never will. But what the heck. I did the best that i could. If she couldnt meet me halfway, then I'll just have to stop and just let things fall. I've had enough. I"ve got ade, jelyn, joy, des, and kid anyway. Knowing that I still have them to treasure, plus my sister and my families, is enough to put a big smile on my face and pride to the whole world that I have them in my life. A kind of people who would never leave me and would forever remain cruel yet honest and genuine with me. :)
With regards to the one who left, here's my simple message to you: bahala na ang Diyos saiyo. Period.
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